Hi Chix. So I think I want to try and get out of my funk. Did I tell that “my funk” is the real reason I haven’t written in this blog much lately? Yes. It’s because all I want to do in my spare time is sleep, or at least lay in bed and watch sad movies. So on Tuesday - after my Monday breakfast of caramel popcorn and my Monday dinner of Golden Oreos – I decided to double my Zoloft dose. Part of it was because I forgot I had already taken it earlier, but part of me figured I probably needed it. Afterall, I’ve been so depressed. I mean REALLY depressed. And that’s what Zoloft is suppose to fix, right? Well, I kept thinking about those articles I read on Sunday; the ones linking depression to refined sugar consumption. So when my usual afternoon time to eat a lot of carbs came around, I downed a protein shake instead. It did curb the cravings, and I made it through the day without a sugar binge. So I think I’m going to try that again today. I woke up this morning and almost grabbed some white bread, but instead I did the same thing… protein. And sure enough, it’s 11:51am, and I’m okay. Anna Rita (my Hot Hula friend) told me to boil a couple of dozen eggs and have them in the fridge at all times. She said deli meat and cheese work the same. So I’ll go to the store today and stock up. But how to I justify this to all of you? I’ve been preaching “no diets” for months, and now here I am back to ground zero. I’m not sure how to explain. It’s embarrassing actually. But maybe there’s a way to not diet but just refrain from sugar. Yeh. That works. Afterall, I refrain from alcohol. I refrain from cigarettes. So why not just add sugar to that list? I can still eat anything else I want. As a matter of fact, I went to a Mexican drive-thru last night at 10:30pm and had beans and cheese. And then I came home and had chicken noodle soup. That definitely doesn’t fit the Atkin’s way of life. I’ll try this… again. I’ve tried it before. And I do remember that I didn’t need so much Zoloft at the time. But maybe it will stick this time. Or maybe not. I do know one thing is different about this time around. I’m not doing it to fit into my skinny jeans. As a matter of fact, I’ve learned to love my elastic waste Garfield fleece pajama bottoms. My husband doesn’t even complain so much anymore when I wear them to Walmart. I’m doing it for my mental well-being. I’m tired of being an addict, and I’m ready to humbly crawl out of this hole I call a funk.
I don't think that fueling your body in a way that makes it more productive is a diet, Wend... I know that I am FAR better off when I start my day with more protein than carbs.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs from someone who knows about the anguish of sitting next to the Rickabaugh girls and their skinny thighs! :)
Wow, I don't want to say I'm happy you're in a "funk" but it's nice to know others feel the same way I do. I feel like that's where I spend most of my time and I can't figure out how everyone else has it so together! It's good to realize that maybe what we see isn't always what it seems. Of course, I think we all suspect this but it's so hard when it looks like those around us are so on top of their life. Thanks for sharing this!
ReplyDeleteI used to drink an instant breakfast every morning but now that I do the early morning workout I was always getting so hungry so I would start eating lots of junk. Now for breakfast I come home and have a poached egg with cheese on a half an english muffin with a side of fruit. It is so tasty and it keeps me satisfied until lunch.
ReplyDeleteI'm with you that diets don't work but making good choices when it comes to what you eat makes you feel so much better!!
Wendy I am kinda a 'new' sweaty chick but really LOVE all you ladies! Hearing what to me sounds like your human and have struggles just like myself makes you so approachable and I just want to tell you to hang in there!! Sounds cheesy, I know but you will come out of this "funk"--I find it truly amazing the class schedule you keep up!! My mind is officially blown! Haven't been to a class since friday...caught f-ing strep throat!! Trying to not freak out about no excercise...Can't wait to be better and see you bright & early at Sculpt-n-burn!!Thanks Wendy!! I love you man!!
ReplyDeleteYeah --I agree. Giving your body what you know makes you feel better (i.e. no cravings etc.) is part of what the whole intuitive eating thing is about isn't it? The same thing helps me. I don't do the 200+ protein grams a day, and I don't limit my healthy carbs, but I do know adding some sort of protein kills the munchies like nobody's business. I try to get at least 110 grams a day.
ReplyDeleteWendy... All I want to say is I love ya! You are truly inspiring and I want to let you know that I "get it". I've spent my whole life trying to be someone else and what I need to do is to be happy with me, and that is what I'm trying to do. Because of you and the Sweaty Chix team I have seeing the light from my funk! I'm always here for you! ALWAYS!
ReplyDeleteor any of the sweaty chix out there. =)
ReplyDeleteI've been in a funk myself lately!! I know how you feel. And I am totally against diets because I don't think I have the will power to do 'em. But I do think it is great to try to make better decisions about what we eat! Of course I say this after I've eaten whatever chocolate I could find still left in the house and some little caesars pizza. I want to be happy with myself and it's a constant struggle!! I need to do some Stuart Smalley self-talk.
ReplyDeleteThe good thing is you at lease realize you have a problem :) I'm sorry things have been hard but you can do it! Like I said in my other comment, I'm having a hard time as well. My honors nutrition teacher said "NO DIETS." Dieting isn't the best....don't cut back on your food/calories necessarily, but just change where you get those calories from! And don't think of it as a diet, cuz "diets" are hard. Merely just think of it as you are eating better and feeling healthier! :D
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