How Many Calories in a Box of Envelopes?

It’s already September, and I am still holding firm in my resolve to not eat sugar although I do find myself licking extra envelopes and eating an extra chewable Zicam every once and a while, and I haven’t been able to give up bread, even though I know I should.  My stress level is off the charts right now so it’s actually good that I’ve eliminated at least some of the refined crap I used to turn to in times of trouble.  

I want to be able to say I don’t know why I haven’t lost any weight, but if I’m going to be honest, I know exactly why.  I may not be binging on sugar, but I’m still binging.  Today I binged on Joe Bandidos and Hamburger Helper.  Yesterday it was my neighbor’s homemade bread.  The day before it was my butter/flour cookie that I invented.  So there must be more to this binging behavior.  The human body really is something else.  I mean how does it know that I’m not eating sugar?  How does it know that chewable Zicam is an acceptable substitute for Oreo ice cream?  That’s just crazy.  I really do need to take it to the next level.  I tried it a while back, but I really wasn’t enjoying the experience.  I did stop drinking diet coke a couple of weeks ago.  I keep thinking that if I give up bread too, there will be nothing left.  Fruit, vegetables, meat?  What kind of an empty life must that make?

I feel like right now I’m doing good just to get up out of bed in the morning.  Everything else is a bonus.  I’m going to have to keep it status quo for now… at least until my family life settle down.  The fact that I’m living with 5 teenagers and a great dane that still pees in the house AND I haven’t touched a Twinkie in over 5 months… well that’s pretty darn good.  The next level will come eventually, but I’m not ready yet.