It’s already September, and I am still holding firm in my resolve to not eat sugar although I do find myself licking extra envelopes and eating an extra chewable Zicam every once and a while, and I haven’t been able to give up bread, even though I know I should. My stress level is off the charts right now so it’s actually good that I’ve eliminated at least some of the refined crap I used to turn to in times of trouble.
I want to be able to say I don’t know why I haven’t lost any weight, but if I’m going to be honest, I know exactly why. I may not be binging on sugar, but I’m still binging. Today I binged on Joe Bandidos and Hamburger Helper. Yesterday it was my neighbor’s homemade bread. The day before it was my butter/flour cookie that I invented. So there must be more to this binging behavior. The human body really is something else. I mean how does it know that I’m not eating sugar? How does it know that chewable Zicam is an acceptable substitute for Oreo ice cream? That’s just crazy. I really do need to take it to the next level. I tried it a while back, but I really wasn’t enjoying the experience. I did stop drinking diet coke a couple of weeks ago. I keep thinking that if I give up bread too, there will be nothing left. Fruit, vegetables, meat? What kind of an empty life must that make?
I feel like right now I’m doing good just to get up out of bed in the morning. Everything else is a bonus. I’m going to have to keep it status quo for now… at least until my family life settle down. The fact that I’m living with 5 teenagers and a great dane that still pees in the house AND I haven’t touched a Twinkie in over 5 months… well that’s pretty darn good. The next level will come eventually, but I’m not ready yet.
